Saying Goodbye by PunkPrincess

Rating: G
Genres: Romance
Relationships: Lily & James
Book: Lily & James, Books 1 - 5
Published: 26/05/2007
Last Updated: 26/05/2007
Status: In Progress

Its graduation day for the class of 1979, and Lily is freaking out. "What if I never see my
friends again? What if I never see James again? I’m not ready to be on my own… what if I mess
everything up?"




1. Graduation
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Saying Goodbye

The last day of school… I, Lily Marie Evans, will graduate from Hogwarts today and I will never
come back. *What if I never see my friends again? What if I never see James again? I'm not
ready to be on my own… what if I mess up?* All these questions were running through my head as I
got up and put my robes on. I can remember how sick I felt the whole day and how I never wanted it
to come. After graduation I had nowhere to go. My parents were dead and I would never lower myself
to live with my horrid sister Petunia.

After I finished dressing I went up to James' room and knocked on the door. “James, are you
in there?” I asked. I heard some shuffling and the door opened a crack. “Hey Lily. Umm did you need
something?” I stared at him oddly and replied, “Not really. I just wanted to talk.” He slid out of
his room and closed the door suspiciously. I figured his friends were in his room and they were
planning something moronic to do later. Oh well… let them have their fun. We walked over to the
common room and sat down. “Lily what's wrong? Are you ok? Everything's going to be fine,”
he told me and I smiled slightly. I leaned into his shoulder and poured out my soul. After I
finished he took me by the shoulders and looked me in the eye. I can remember every word he said,
because it filled me with butterflies worse than I had ever felt. “Lily, don't be scared. You
are the top of our year and you are the most skilled witch I have ever met. Don't worry about
where you are going to go, because you can live with me. Even if you don't come back to
Hogwarts, it will always be in your heart, so don't fret. And… Lily I love you.” I looked up at
him and my teary eyes lit up. I pulled him to me, and kissed him more passionately than I thought
possible. After what felt like hours, I pulled away, and hugged him. While my mouth was right next
to his ear, I whispered, “I love you too James Potter.” We stayed like that for a while, but
finally I realized that our graduation was going to start in an hour. I smiled at him, and told him
that I had better go get ready. He gave me a kiss on the cheek and I walked back up to my room.

Lying across my bed were the robes that I would be wearing later. I sighed and put them on. I
sat down by my mirror and smoothed out the wrinkles in the satin material. By the time I was done
getting ready, my hair had been put into a fancy up do, my makeup had been perfected and I was
pacing around in my room. A knock on the door interrupted my pacing, and I walked over to it. “Lily
it's me, are you ready to go?” I opened the door to see James standing there in his scarlet
robes and his messy hair with his hand out. I smiled and took his hand, and we walked down to the
great hall.

All of the seventh year students were gathered around the doors and we walked over to Remus and
Sirius. I noticed that they all shared a secret glance, and I knew for sure that they were going to
do something stupid. I placed the thought away and joined in with the talk. Remus was talking about
how he couldn't believe school was finally over. I suddenly felt a wave of sorrow spill through
me, and I gave all of the guys hugs and kisses on the cheek. Ever since this year the Marauders had
become my best friends, and I was so glad that they were James' best friends, because that
meant I would still see them all of the time. I could hear the music starting in the background, so
we all lined up and walk in pair-by-pair. Once we were all seated, Dumbledore walked over to the
podium and called the head students to the front. I slowly stood up, and walked to the front. In my
hand was the speech that I had written last night. I looked out to all of the other students and
folded my speech up and put it away.

“My time at Hogwarts was amazing. I look at each of your faces and a different memory pops into
my head, whether it be just studying or hanging out after classes. It makes me sad to look upon all
of your faces and know that I will never see some of you ever again after today. It also makes me
sad to look upon some of your faces and know that I will have to see you everyday until I die.”
This got a few chuckles out of the students. I smiled to myself, and winked at James.

“When I look back on my past seven years here at Hogwarts, I see a series of fights, yelling,
tears, joys, bliss, and jet black hair. I'm heartbroken to say our time here is over, and we
must going and make our lives in this dark and cold world. I have nothing but faith in us all, and
so I will end my portion of this ceremony with a cliché, we did it!” Everyone clapped, and I made
my way back to my seat.

The headmaster called James up to the front to give his speech, but I wasn't listening.
Again, I was near tears, and I just couldn't focus on his talking. I couldn't get my mind
off of the fact that I would never be here again. Ever. In three weeks I would be starting a job in
the department of experimental charms at the ministry. In a month James and Sirius would start
auror training. In a few days, my life would begin and I would be on my own. *That's not
true**,* I told myself, *James will never leave you*.

I faintly heard applause and I looked up to see James walking over toward me. He sat down, and
clasped onto my hand. Dumbledore finished the ceremony, and we all left to mingle with our friends,
and cry about leaving. Right before most people started to go back to their dormitories we heard a
girl shriek in disgust. Running across the great hall in all of his naked glory was Sirius Black. I
sighed and shook my head… *Idiots…*

Later, James and I were sitting on the floor in front of the fire, talking about all the times
he asked me out, and everything that popped into our heads about growing up here in this
magnificent place. My head was lying on his shoulder, and his hands were playing with my auburn
hair. Eventually, the conversation died out, and we just sat there together like the picture of
perfection. As I drifted to sleep in James's arms, I felt all of my fears leave me, because no
matter what, I would never be alone. I had great friends, and the love of the greatest man I had
ever met. Nothing could hurt me as long as they were safe and by my side, fighting to the end.

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